an excerpt:
I am begging you to consider that I feel myself wise.
I can look back on those previous times and say--
well, my my, I was foolish and I hurt you because I thought--
unimportant. I feel myself wisened, expanded, conformed, more capable of functioning in the aftermath of this learning experience.
if it pleases you, consider this.
keep in mind that I gave you this voyage (intended in fact for her more vocal featured hands)
and so doing
felt i was acting in a practical sense, seizing an opportunity offered.
BUT I SEE NOW THAT I WAS AT FAULT
and my new and better programming can identify such a problem from the start,
down into the tricky stuff like roots and probabilities.
and while calculating these new motives, new directives and lifestyle choices,
I realized that suicide is gradually evolving us to apathy.
and this is what sagacity tastes like!
like the thyme or when those kids sold you some oregano
giraffes get longer necks and we learn to love each other less.