Egress/Regress

sea change

(01:17 am. some editing for brevity/privacy.)

alli b: i figured everything out
everything i've done in the past few months...i figured out why
i am SO BORED with my life right now
i keep finding all these ways to escape

alli b: and it's just because i go through every day the same way
the EXACT SAME WAY
and i can't do that anymore
i have to start making changes because it's not making sense anymore to do it this way

alli b: i'm becoming the kind of person that i don't want to be and i feel like there are things i can do to change it

alli b: but i want to make my life better so that i don't have to feel that way

aNeedlessBecause: we should do something
something conscious and tangible
to try and change things.

aNeedlessBecause: a sort of... closedness to change i guess is the problem

aNeedlessBecause: we are entering a period of drastic change
and those who aren't, probably should be.

aNeedlessBecause: i guess what's frustrating me most
is feeling so transitional, yet with so little actual change
i'm just waiting around for things to happen
which is bullshit!
alli b: exactly!

aNeedlessBecause: drastic actions are soon required i think
we need some auto-revolution

aNeedlessBecause: but i think tangibility of sorts is key

aNeedlessBecause: and i'm going to try to think of something
maybe something as simple as creating something every day
setting out to accomplish something in particular and actually doing it, you know?

alli b: i just kind of want to hear new ideas every day
things i've never thought of before

thank you alli. i needed someone to shake me up.

Posted by samantha at January 16, 2005 02:19 AM