Lately I've been wishing I had one desire
something that would make me never want another
something that would make it so that nothing matters
all would be clear then
-bright eyes, a perfect sonnet
so I've done some stupid things. I have some regrets. I have some memories to break my heart, I have some memories to weaken my knees. I have some friends that I think are still here, I have some friends that I think are goin' away. I have this wincing at myself, I have the sight of trees blowing madly through the window outside, but everything is quiet and cold.
but I guess i'll have to settle for a few brief moments
and watch all dissolve into a single second
and try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line
other people words say it better. other people's pain is more important. I want to express these waves, try and describe the high ride and the jagged crash. I'm terrified and lonely, and terribly cliched. The biggest things I've ever felt... and I'm out of words.
'cause that's all that you'll get so you'll have to accept
you are here and then you're gone
but i believe that lovers should be tied together and
thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
and left there to drown
left there to drown
in their innocence
she has no idea how much I could have loved her. he has no idea how much I love him. I'm drowning in someone else's bitterness, and a former lover warned of hail. My hands are tied, just like you liked it, but I'm the only one here. I miss the ropes with my cleansing fire, tempted to break yet another new promise. It's amazing how you can laugh while you're falling apart, because some things are natural.
but as for me i'm coming to the final chapter
i read all of the pages and there is still no answer
only all that was before i know must soon come after
it's the only way it can be
you're getting sick of my drama. I'm getting sick of unhappiness, but nothing knows how to change. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do, and I'm sorry for that. I thought, for a moment, that she gave me surety. I thought, for a moment, that he gave me hope, but my heart can break in all directions.
but as for me i'm coming to my final failure
i've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
ended up becoming something other than what I had planned to be
every step forward is another step back. I'm acting like a child and I'm lusting like a woman and I'm being called girl. I'm not who I want to be. but this isn't all about me.
now i believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
and layed entwined together on a bed of clover
and left there to sleep
left there to dream of their happiness
all I ever want is for you to be happy. I thought I was your temporary cure.
I brought on heartbreak because I thought it was inevitable.